Where did everything go?
My drive, my passion.
Back when she, my Goddess, was still here with me, I couldn't help but to write. I'd pour my soul into words so full of passion and emotion that I couldn't even control myself. My fingers would fly across the keys in a flurry I hadn't known they were capable of. The mere image of her within my psyche, her voice whispering sweet nothings into my ear, her warmth intertwining with my own. It was all it took for me to lose myself in my words.
It felt that if I didn't write everything down, I'd shrivel up and die.
She was more than the woman I loved; she was my inspiration, my passion.
And now that I am without her I am creatively dead. No lustful passion could compare to the intensity of my feelings for Chloe. Though it's all I have now. Aside from the ever-vivid memories of those wonderful times and the hope that grows fainter with each passing second, all I have left is the maddening desire for sex.
Never before has such a desire overwhelmed me so. The sight of such beautiful women with such amazing personalities brings a tingle down my spine that drives me utterly insane. Especially her. It's become increasingly difficult to keep myself under control, what with her teasing and her just being her. I want her so badly, but I could never do anything to her that she didn't want. I don't want her to regret a single moment with me. Only if she wanted it, would I do it. Then, and only then.
They always say that you want what you can't have the most of all.
They were right.
It's why all I can write anymore is these rants, these useless drabbles of mere musings.
Y'know, I still believe in the Beatle's song, "All You Need Is Love." Despite my total lack of a love life and lack of desire for one, I still believe in Love. No emotion can effect someone more, can bring people to their knees with such ease, or bring someone to a sort of living Nirvana like Love can.
Regardless, I find myself rather content with my life as it is. I'm developing more as a person and growing into an adult, as well as building skill.
Though I really wouldn't mind relieving myself from some of this sexual frustration. xD Oh well.
I guess I'll just have to see where life takes me.

Peace, Love, and Luck,
--- Kris.